Bob got home last week from his bike-pack trip in Costa Rica. During the time Bob was gone, I wished I was with Bob instead of here, working. It is the first time that the work schedule, which is pretty flexible, did not pan out for me.
In the end, Bob said it was best I had not gone this time. One reason was that new route he tackled. The one that sheared the cleats on his cycling shoes. When I saw the condition of them, my eyes about bugged out. That was some major straining on them to have that kind of damage done.
The other reason Bob said it was best I did not go, is because of an area we intended on exploring together the first time we were there. Photos can be quite deceiving. When I looked on-line, photos showed a beautiful area. Climbing the succession of massive hilly dirt roads is not worth the effort. Bob said the area is a bit dumpy. There is nothing really there to see.
We don’t always get to do what we want, or what we THINK we want. As usual, God’s plans always ends up to be the better one.
My time here alone gave me a chance to take the hardest look at myself I ever did in my life. You probably heard the phrase, “what goes around, comes around.” Well, this was a case of “what goes around, comes around, and goes around again.” This was between one friend and me.
A sudden string of bad treatment towards me caused me to retaliate back at that person. God intervened and hit me hard to the core. I realized that after I had some time to think about things and thought, “Is that why I had that one ultra stupid moment? Because God wanted to teach me a lesson?” My thought then was that two wrongs don’t make a right. I said, “Okay God, I get it. I learned my lesson.”
God opened my eyes extra-wide about myself this time. To make amends, I called that person just to talk, and it turned out that I was also able to help out in a situation. It was in God’s perfect plan that I had called at that moment. I must say that I felt much better after making amends.
From now on, I hope that I am able to maintain being the person that God wants me to be, rather than what I had been.